06 December 2009

"The outer conditions of a person's life will always be found to reflect their inner beliefs."



In December, the crinkle of antiquarian Christmas music, the bewitching baritone of Nat King Cole, the palliative tenor of Frank Sinatra, tranquilizes the white heat of my temperament. For a fistful of time, maps are no longer luring, with all their inscribed invites to escape; the prominent, primitive recklessness I feel in all other seasons is as quiet as snowfall.



Mainly it's the merry melodies, the impregnating of possibilities. But then there's the shimmer and twinkle of tiny lights, encompassing tinsel and trees, strung like the hopes of humans, brittle bulbs of brightness. The carolers that come in clarity of candlelight; the hallowed hush of the snowdrifts; the flush of the fire; the scent of cinnamon and pine.



The peppermint candlesticks set on windowsills, Christmas films, and Christmas stories, the papered parcels put under the tree, topped with velvet bows. The ethereal echo of the cathedral choir, the Christmas Eve ceremony unfolding under the afghan of winter stars. And from all, comes a contentedness, so tender, that I feel I might cry, might crumble from it all.



I am flecked with flaws, missteps, misgivings, immeasurable idiosyncrasies, irresponsibility; a rebel, and a runner. I have a tongue too hasty; a will that never wafts, even in the whip of the wind. I dream, and I wish, and I hope. I believe.



As intricate, and dissimilar, as we may be, we all need something to believe in. Be it Saint Nicolas, and his sleigh, his fleet of flying reindeer. Be it a king borne in Bethlehem, beneath the heavens, the son of God. Be it good will, good deeds, justice, joy. Be it humanity, or a happily-ever-after. Be it all.



My dear, do not forsake faith, for without it, fear will arise, in its absence, and grow, in its vacant place. When wonder seems to have strayed, search for it beneath the staggering stack of sobriety, brush it off, and tuck it into the enveloping fold of your heart. Believe.



Happy holidays! May your hearts be merry and bright!

P.S. I signed up for a Last.fm account, if you have one too, you can add me here, if you like.

Title Quote: James Allen
Photo Credits: Allison Scarpulla, Thomas Hawk, pony_tail, and Sasha Nikitin.

81 comments:

janis said...

beautiful as always.

a good reminder to find wonder and make a conscious effort to believe.

happy holidays.

x

Vintage Me New You said...

Hi dear,

I am so happy to hear from you and to read you again!
I so love Christmas, cause from all the holidays we are celebrating,for me this one is special in a lot of ways, but what I mostly adore about it is that we celebrate it in family...
It's like I feel people differently around me:)
I do hope you're doing great, I wish you looooove and joy:*


Bisous,
Gia.

T.H. said...

Lovely. Truly lovely.

This is one of the few blogs that can inspire me creatively in all aspects and I savor each of the posts like the little gifts that they are.

Happy Holidays.
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daisychain said...

you have no idea how much I miss you and your beautiful blog posts.

rossovelvet said...

Happy holidays to you too !
I missed your posts !
And thank you for creating this magical atmosphere with your words... like reading 'a christmas carol'...

Tanya said...

thank you for this post. it made my day! i will remember to read it when i'm feeling down/lacking faith.

Natalie said...

gorgoues pics!! i'm loving this post so much! :)

xoxo

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muchlove said...

absolutely beautiful post, my sweet!

Happy holidays ^_^

xx

Laura said...

Just stunning and touching pictures. I can hear Nat King Cole singing in the background and suddenly I want some hot chocolate. Thanx for your lovely quote comment sweetie! Email me if you would like to guest post on Under the Sheets~shhh in the upcoming weeks...

surimay said...

lovely! the images are so dream-like. hmm christmas and holidays to follow. time for family! that's my tradition :D
have a happy holiday! :) <3

Stompface said...

ohh happy holidays indeed!
and yay for you and another posty posty! they really are beautiful! they make me feel all warm and fuzzy inside!!

xx

peaitlreiecnia said...

i'll never tire of reading your posts, i loved the "the impregnating of possibilities" so pretty

i love the matching images. is that you i spy in one of the last ones?

wonderful effort at inspiring the christmas sentiment

Front Grill said...

Heartfelt.

Elena said...

So inspiring once again!

Barbro Andersen said...

I believe in my friends and my family, in the kindness of strangers and this is why I celebrate Christmas.

Wonderful post, as always <3

Couture Carrie said...

Stunning photos and words, darling!
How I have missed your lovely posts, S-C!
Hope you have a wonderful holiday season :)

xoxox,
CC

natasha said...

im glad to see a poct again from this site-
i almost deleted it when i thought you werent coming back

STEFANIE said...

aww S-C I missed your beautiful posts! This is such a magical entry, your words accompanied by those amazing pictures... LOVE! And I'm really craving the smell of a pine tree in the house. It may be odd to say, but there's just something about that smell, no? It makes me smile, it really does.

Savvy Gal said...

what a beautiful touching post. my recent favorite holiday memory was the one which my niece was wide-eyed with wonderment from her first x-mas tree.

Sophie said...

This post has made my day! Your writing is so beautiful and eloquent, and all the photos are gorgeous.
"My dear, do not forsake faith, for without it, fear will arise, in its absence, and grow, in its vacant place."
really resonated with me.

And The Go-Getter is a really fantastic movie.

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These pictures are absolutely gorgeous!

Mirror/Dash said...

Happy holidays to you as well, S-C dear. I wish you all of your dreams come true and the stars in you planetarium shine with beautiful bright. And please, keep up with filling our days with words with strength to rip hearts from chests. Cheers, XX

hélène said...

Nothing makes me happier than Christmas time. Everyone is just happy and frantic, there's so much joy in the air and it's just a great excuse to spend time with my family. I think i love it so much because of the traditions we have and because i am so close to my family. I'm so excited about it!!

UnoCosa said...

you always managed to write such poetic post with starling images!!! simply love it ... i am still waiting for the snowfall here - reckon it will happen sometimes soon :-)

xx

Hila said...

I have to admit, I have no attachment to Christmas as I never grew up with it and I'm Jewish. I appreciate the pretty things about it though: the idea of getting together with your family for feasting, the lights and the general festivity. But I do wish it wasn't so commercialised as everything meaningful about it becomes lost in consumerism. A naive wish, I know.

Anyway, I celebrate Hannukah, my favourite Jewish holiday.

Hope you are well lovely girl and taking good care of yourself!

Karobaro said...

Lovely pictures!

Giovanna ♥ said...

Adorable! The photography is also stunning!
Thanks for visiting my blog, I adore yours :)
Happy Holidays for you too!
Love,
Giovanna

Marta Represa said...

These pictures are so amazing (as usual in you blog), they make me feel nostalgic for some reason...Great post.

xx

the healthy ghost said...

Beautiful the same to you!
xx

Nata said...

Lovely, and heart-wrenching.
Your writing is as always, immaculate. (:
I wish you the best through the holidays, and I can't believe I identify my own emotions with yours.
I feel those same feelings, but I take them out in different ways. Whether it be through a favorite song, sporadic doodles, tattered poems, or projects.

- Nata

beckyxoxo said...

Oh wow these pics are truly beautiful ! And who can wait for Christmas ? Haha . Must be exciting ! Happy holidays dear ! :D

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Thank you for your comment on my blog:) this post is wonderful

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Kim xx

mart and lu said...

beautiful words and beautiful pictures. you have a lovely blog!

fhen said...

i always love christmas :)
all the ambience and activities.
adore what you wrote too. make me so in christmas mood

Mary Jo from TrustYourStyle said...

So nice as always to read your posts. And to remember to keep the sense of wonder with you always. Hoping you are having a warm and cozy winter right where you are!
xo

Anne said...

So nice to see you back here again. Lovely post.

J'Adore Fashion said...

brbeautifully written...definitely what we do reflects who we are. I miss you inspiring writing dear. post more, more, more lol
xoxo

Paperface said...

Thank you Susanna, coming from you that means a lot. I've always admired your talent. You definitely got the gift.

Btw, did Night Train to Lisbon inspire your trip to Lisbon?

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Colaço said...

Love your blog!!

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Betsy said...

cool blog!!!

PrettyInBlack said...

You described the season beautifully.

I celebrate Christmas.

My relatives are pretty close so my family (grand parents, aunts, uncles, cousins) all gather at my grand parents home. To everyone, it is a second home. I spent many days there as a child. My grandpa is an adventurer. When I was a child he would often request that my brother, my two cousins and I come over the night before a snow storm so we could spend days there sledding and walking in the woods. Once, it snowed at night and we went sledding under the stars.

In the past year God has made himself unshakably real to me.

Bless you, you adventurer with the Father's creative spirit.

Happy Holidays!
PIB

Tuesdai said...

I'd LOVE to celebrate all (whatever that number may be) but guess I'll have to settle for Christmas (smile). Christmas for me is: A tall tree with random colored lights, a smile of peace and love for family, hot cocoa, "It's A Wonderful Life", laughing loudy while messing up Christmas carols, and burnt gingerbread cookies....just making the wishes that will travel and exceed the new year as a brilliant and new found adventure!

Maria Tasula said...

Sadly, I have none =( really....and I'm starting to think it's weird.

Brandi said...

Your blog is absolutely beautiful. I love your words and these beautiful pictures. So glad you stopped by my blog...your comment led me to the beauty here. Be back soon! And enjoy the lovely holiday season.

Friend in Fashion said...

Such gorgeous pictures - beautiful! :)

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xx

fadetoblack said...

just found your blog and I love!++

Maxine said...

the second photo gives me a wonderful Christmas feeling

Grace said...

You always find the most beautiful words.

Love Grace.

Merci New York said...

Ah! I just love that Central park image!!
xx
Merci

Melissa Walker said...

S-C, For some reason I had thought you'd stopped blogging, but I'm so glad I was wrong! There's more loveliness int the world for these posts. xo, Melissa

The Inimitable S said...

absolutely love your blog. wonderful. it takes me away...

Ivania said...

beautiful post
love christmas :)

Ivania said...

beautiful post
love christmas :)

Caye & Limalmn said...

beautiful!

agnes said...

Christmas really warms and opens one's heart. Everything just looks better during christmas. LOVE IS DEFINITELY ALL AROUND :)

P.S I wish you a very happy christmas my dear!

open the following link for the christmas card :)

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Take Care!
agnes xx

Taryn Andre said...

wonderful read :-)

hope your christmas went well!

RINO said...

Très beau blog !!!

yiqin; said...

Ah I love christmas acutally :)

suzannah said...

oh, dearest susanna i hope you have had a lovely, magical christmas and i hope you have a happy new year ♥

and i just thought i would let you know i have changed my blog like to www.theseaghost.blogspot.com (i used to be magical whisper)

much love, from suzannah ♥

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This is soooooo cool..

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Lissa said...

Wow, you are amazing.
I love your blog too much for words. It is so thought-provoking and lovely. Will you marry me? haha :D

Dith said...

Awesome photos! Breathtaking!

Rachelle Q said...

hey S-C!

sorry for the delayed response =O i'm back in manila and have started working again as a stylist/ writer.

how are you?? I hope you have had time to unpack your things by now :) are you still in NY? i miss the city! although i am relieved to be out of winter weather. :)

hope you had a great christmas! i had a wonderful time with my huuge family. wishing you an awesome and bright new year ahead!

♥ R

Ash Fox said...

Ah! I've so missed your blog! Gorgeous Christmas post! I hope you are having a lovely holiday season!

x

Colorado Photos said...

Beautiful post...
These are so gorgeous! Good job.

marian said...

I have always loved your thought provoking posts and didnt realised you still blogged. I will visit you regularly.
Happy new year darling! Wishing you the best of the New Year! Hope you had a lovely New Year's Eve, I just posted my adventures from seeing the New Year in.
Big kiss honey
xx
Marian.

J'Adore Fashion said...

happy new year dear! all the best! xoxo

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I love your blog! The pictures are so amazing!

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Aww I'm just flattered you replied! :) Your blog consistently inspires me and I can't wait for the next post. <3

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Anonymous said...

Hi, I just found your blog, and I have to say it is the most inspiring one I have come across and also the one I can identify with most. I'm sure people say this all the time, but thank you for putting your writing out there, because I think you have the ability to analyze or explain or just put into words the hazy, half-formed thoughts and feelings I often have, but have never been able to articulate as beautifully and coherently as you have.

Also, I am at a point in my life where I have finally become a strong enough person to take my life in the direction that I think will fulfill me most, and unfortunately this has been very shocking and disturbing to my parents and some of my friends. I've been getting all sorts of disheartening comments and "advice", and people telling me I'm being impractical and should choose a more conventional, secure way of life. But I'm just so sick of being trapped in the seemingly endless and extremely tedious cycle of what is apparently a "normal life". Your blog has helped reassured me that I am in the right, and not a raving lunatic for being a dreamer. So I really found it in a time of uncertainty and vulnerability, and wanted to express my gratitude to you for creating such a lovely blog.

Susanna-Cole said...

Dear Anonymous,

Aw, you're more than welcome, there's really no need to thank me, thank you for reading, and I'm so happy I could inspire you some.

I'm also happy to hear you're striving for the lifestyle you want, and not sacrificing your happiness to please others, though, sorry to hear about the disheartening comments, I know they can be frustrating and hurtful. Don't loose hope though, if always pays off, so to say, to do what you love, and embrace who you are. Best wishes! ♥

xoxo,
S-C

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